If it’s true that we are the only ones that can control our mood, how is it that when we become angry we blow up? Despite any extenuating circumstances, we are ultimately always in control, whether that be happy, sad, or even upset. I find, however, that anger is the hardest emotion to restrain. It’s like some innate switch that someone flips and all rationale goes out the window. It seems to me that no matter how hard you try to monitor the feeling the agitation in essence becomes one in its own.
I wish I could offer some sort of resolution, but I’m not so sure I have figured one out. I think maybe that the beginning lies in the end. Learning to understand the outcomes that result when things get out of control helps the position for next time. Reconciling the pain of the wounds it transpires calls for a better solution.
Remembering, I believe, is important to better understand, but it still seems to not be enough. How many times have you felt yourself start to get angry as the flash backs of the last fight start playing through your mind? Just for a second, time stands still as your thoughts rewind, and in that split second, you painfully regret what you know is about to take place. That overwhelming burst explodes, forcing the cycle to play out yet again.